aaaarrrrrrrrrrrrghh!

there is nothing much i can do here to RELEASE

my INNER

RAMPAGING

BOILING

STRANGLING

HEAD SHOT SPLATTER USING SHOTGUN SHOOTING

KNIFE STABBING

SLICING

and unstable stress!

i CANT focus!

CANT make myself  concentrate!

CANT myself stay calm!

screw for now that law of attraction! yes i am attracting negative thoughts right now!!! 

i need to do something that is out of this effing ROUTINE!

ERGhhhhhhhh!

these negative feeling inside of me. How am i going to let it out ?

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text some of my friends. and thank god "some of them replied back".

yeah.

all i need is someone else to talk with.

either than unable to do nothing here.

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back home i used to make myself a whole set of cuisine!

just for me!

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yeah ! i admitted it!

either than go running wild with the wind like freaking horse!

playing ping pong,

singing out of tune,

make fun of other people,

and more.

i like to cook for myself!

even though it doesn't taste nice. i like it that way! cuz im the one who doing the cooking! not you!

i am more prone into making something out of the oven.

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all the appetizers,

all the salty croissant with tuna + salad + lots of cheese, 

the thin slice baguette serve with slice tomato + chicken with simple tartar dressing, 

all the main dishes,

baked potato with freaking crunchy Parmesan chicken cutlet with rosemary lemon dressing and brown gravy,

baked mac and cheese,

all those sweet and spicy paprika sauce pasta with tuna chunk,

baked sweet hot black paper chicken wing,

all the desert,

all the cakes that i baked,

all the pudding that i made,

all the cookies that i baked,

all the sweet tasty chocolate brownies with ice cream moisten with Hersey's Chocolate Syrup,

all the baked cheese cake.

yeah. i miss all those things!.

and i could not find it here!

i could not make it here!.

all that freaking ignorance that i can think of is making instant noodle with freaking water kettle! water kettle!!!!!!

FREAKING water kettle!

i was soo excited when i come across this huge complete kitchen which is at the nutritionist block!

they ACTUALLY have real KITCHEN! REAL INGREDIENT!!

but the problem is !

NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO USE THE KITCHEN UNLESS WITH PROPER ADMINISTRATION AND GOOD REASONING! and yeah APPROVED BY THE HIGHEST POSITION!

if ya gonna block it to the public, ya better block EVERYTHING around here! including the toilet!

so people doesn't make shits bout it anymore. got it ?

im making lil problems look bigga now.

u really dont wanna mess with me right now.

i am effing wanna have a punching bag in my room.

flesh meat punching bag.

period.

some girls think that guy barely cook is hot. well thanks my lady. ya on top my list!.

beside doing all those routinely things. why dont we try to do something different aite. ?

as for tomorrow. i MIGHT doing something out of me.

so better be prepare.

i might get haywire.

the rampaging doesn't stop here!

(well atleast tiny fraction of it has been released)