I never felt like this before. Well, not as intense as it should not be.
Did i miss home that much ?.
I had my lunch at prima inn as usual. But the unusual was that, I, got my eyes gazed at a blue unser, which is belongs to my family, and suddenly I wanted to call out you know who. It was like a dejavu when my mom or my dad driving through at our front yard.
By keeping a car here with me is totally making me feel I'm at home.
For the past few weeks, I had this feeling-kinda action that I was at my house and not my room, here. I was searching for my speed-wind fan that is located at the living-room which is that is "my room". It is been quite some times now for this matter to happened.
or maybe that I am worried for something.
I don't know.
My eldest brother is getting married this coming june and my mom and aunt is going for umrah too at the same month and I will be having my second selanjar few weeks after that. I need to escape classes at least until my mom safely reached tanah suci.
I don't know.
Everything is all mixed up. All those feeling at home and here.
i know I am not a great child, but I hope everything goes well for mom and aunt. and my brother too.
I really do hope that they are fine.
I have kept avoiding places that can reminds me of home. But that does not help much. I am still cling to the same emotion and presences.
I called my mom for the first time since I am here two years ago. Usually we just text at each other to update any hot stories regarding our family or any update of those effing basket relative that never care about others except for money and wealth that keep on bothering our family.
Maybe I am just scared. Since now the only left in our house is my lil brother and my sister and dad. That would make me keep on thinking and worrying too much.
I don't know.
Thanks for reading anyway.
It has been quite awhile since I updated my blog.
cheers.
